Yesterday nite, i dream about sth weird again.
I dream that i'm a top student in the sch and has always being a good girl..
but due to high expectation from everyone, i dislike the feeling being pressure upon, and wanted to change my self.
so from a good girl i wanted to be a bad girl....but somehow being bad there is a level ranking on how bad we are..
i was hoping i was in the most bad list, but i could not find my name at any level at all.. level 1 is the most bad person, the following level is the lesser bad person..
while i go through the level ranking list, when i come to level 5, dunno why i saw my staff, Jeyamala- whom cannot be trusted, is at level 5...
i was angry to saw her at level 5, i was angry y she can be at level 5 but i'm not in any of the level.. am i not bad enough??
feeling angry, i walk back to the classroom, thinking y i was so angry of not being in the bad person list... since i'm not in the list, then i shall move on... so when i started wanted to be good again, while i listen to what the teacher is teaching... there is this 1 guy (dunno who he is), follow me back to my classroom sitting next to me and started to disturb me...he even kiss me on my cheeks in which he ended getting hit by me...
his disturbance and my reaction somehow or rather seem invisible to the teacher...
while this person is disturbing me, i was scared that the teacher saw and might scold us but this teacher does not respond to anything that happen at the moment...
i was thinking is it because of this guy who happen to be seem like a gangster in which the teacher do not dare to say anything....
what happen in the dream seem very weird as if there is some meaning to be said..
but to be honest i quite like to be tease by this guy during the class...i do not know y...eventhough in dreams i know it does annoy me some but some part in my heart, i kind of like it....
at about 8.15am, my alarm rang....and i was awake from my dream...
and actually i was wishing to sleep back and to continue dream about this guy..hehe
is kind of cold in the morning, although still feeling sleepy, i need to get up for work ad....
when i think back of my dream, i was thinking does it trying to tell me not be a bad person...continue to be a good person even there is high expectation given by everyone to u...
there is no need of bother about what other ppl think...what really matters is how we think...
things are easy to say than done...
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